Oh Where to Begin?

If I updated this blog more often, I think it would be easier to update. But instead I go way to long and then when I do feel like updating, I have way too much to talk about and I freeze. So instead of trying to “catch you up” – I think I’ll just talk about today!

When I woke up this morning, I felt seriously disoriented. I don’t even know what was wrong… but I could not function until I had cleaned the house. It was like the clutter was cluttering my brain and giving me brain fog. The other issue was how insanely tired I felt. Despite the fact that I went to bed about two hours earlier than I usually do, and slept in, I was still exhausted. I forgot to eat breakfast.

All day I have been laughing at my poor dog. I really need to take a picture of Chloe right now. She is wearing a silly cone around her neck to keep her from licking her stitches. She got spayed yesterday – and micro-chipped. We are calling her the old lady. I hope she is not transmitting all our secrets via satellite now that she has this mysterious chip under her skin.

I have had the worst diet this week. I can’t stop eating junk. I want to eat fifty pounds of brownie covered in whipped cream and hot fudge. Luckily I’m not following my urges to that degree.

Today I had the opportunity to meet with another photographer and teach her a few things. I hope that she was able to benefit. I am always looking for ways that I can share what I have learned and also be generous with what I have, even if it’s just a few hours of my time and a few tips I’ve picked up along the way.

Tonight we had dinner with friends – and all of our children – well my single child and their three – played in the sandbox and got seriously dirty. It was fun to throw them all in the tub and watch the bathwater turn brown. Silly kids — I had to do a lot of scrubbing to get the sand out of Micah’s hair. But he loves playing with people his size so much. I love to watch. And I love to spend time with friends and enjoy good food together.

And now I am designing a mini accordion album for a recent senior session. What a relaxing way to end the evening (yes, Photoshop is relaxing for me, lol).

The New Graduate!

My brother-in-law graduated from NIU!! Such a huge accomplishment! I can’t believe it has been 6 years since I finished college – that is about the time I first met Eric’s family. I remember walking in the door and I’m pretty sure someone said, “whoa, she’s really pretty!” Before you start thinking I’m bragging here, please note that the tone of that statement expressed a slight amount of shock. I was the first girl he brought home. Apparently they had low expectations?

Anyway, two weekends ago we had a party at my in-laws to celebrate Andy’s milestone. He brought his new fiance, which was great because I have not gotten to spend a ton of time with her yet. (She came along on a recent family trip, too, which was awesome because I got to know her even more!) I will be doing their engagement photos later this month and I’m shooting their wedding next June. I’m super excited about that! I’m also excited about the fact that there will be two daughters-in-law in the family, which means the pressure to have more babies will be lessened. Sorry, Jen. Haha.

Here is the couple with my little man. I think Micah looks a little like his uncle… do you see it?

Eric’s grandparents came, too – here is his sister with his grandpa. They are an unstoppable Euchre team!

I like this picture because it shows my mother-in-law’s love for both balloons at parties and antiques. Plus you can see Uncle Brian in the mirror! LOL

(Yes, there is a recliner in the kitchen! Unconventional? Maybe. Practical? Sometimes… Cozy? Always!)

No party is complete without a few rounds of Euchre!

I love my in-laws! I need to bring the camera along more often – it’s nice to have a record of these little get-togethers. When I look at these photos I see so many details that seem ordinary now, but will bring back tons of memories later.

Our Trip to the Zoo

On Memorial Day, I took Micah to the zoo with my parents up in Madison. The Henry Vilas Zoo is free and a fun place to take small kids because of it’s smaller size.

This was the first year Micah was able to look through the holes of the animal thingamajigs on his own. :)

And of course, we had to take the annual Micah-sitting-on-the-lion shot. This was the first year Micah did not need our help sitting on this statue. My boy is growing up!

I got to bring a big zoom lens I had rented for a wedding that weekend. I was excited to get some closeups of my favorite animals. I may or may not have planned the whole zoo trip for this very reason.

It was fun to listen to Micah talk about the zoo and all the animals for the next several days. He really loved it!

He Ain’t Heavy, He’s My Baby

Yesterday I found myself feeling more frustrated than ever. I had dropped a sheet of paper in the parking lot, and when I picked it up and unfolded it, I saw that it was my prescription for my fertility meds. I glanced it over and suddenly I got that sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. The directions for the progesterone looked off to me. I reread the days listed and I realized that I started it on the wrong day. I had thought it said to start the progesterone on day #12…. but last night I saw that it actually said #17. How could I have mistaken the 7 for a 2? That is what I did, and I effectively killed my chances this month. I’m so mad at myself!! To think of all the time, worry, pregnancy tests and money wasted. Now I’m just waiting for the next month to start so I can have another chance. I’m going to write it all on a calendar and triple check it against my script. So frustrating!!

I’d rather focus on what is good in my life right now. God has been so tender with me lately; he has shown me how much he loves me through worship, through friends, through my daily life. He knows my heart. He knows exactly what I need. My emotions are shaky right now, and most of that has to do with the meds and the physical adjustment. I’m constantly trading in these temporary emotions for God’s eternal peace, constantly offering up my concerns and frustrations in prayer, knowing that He will work out everything. These days I do not put any stock in my shaky emotions. I tell myself, this won’t last long, just keep plugging through.

I look at my life and the different “doors” that are presented to me. It seems as though the doors to baby#2 are closing and the doors to my career are opening all around me. I often wonder if God’s hand is present in all this – in that He has a specific purpose for me in this area of my life, and my plans for more kids is on hold because of that.  I don’t know what the future holds so I can’t really make any assumptions, but I’m always seeking for opportunities to glorify God with the skills that I have and in the circumstances I’m in. The idea of ramping up my business really excites me. I love photography with every ounce of my heart! There are also other areas in my life where I can see that God might need me, too – for instance – one of my best friends is carrying twins right now. If I were pregnant, I wouldn’t be much help to her when she really needs it this fall! She’s gonna need extra hands, for sure!

So, a lot of things are on my mind lately, as you can probably tell. And I feel like my blog is getting too “heavy,” so I’m going to lighten it up a bit with some funny pictures! Ready?

This little boy brings so much joy to my life – a smile to my face I just can’t wipe away. I’ve never been more grateful for him than I am now.

Happy Birthday Lulu!

My grandma’s birthday party was a huge success. So many people came and it was so great to see family members that traveled from several states away to celebrate. We hosted it at my mom’s church. All my aunts made tons of treats and decorated it beautifully. My grandma dressed up and had her hair done – she even had a pretty little tiara!

This is my grandma with all of her sons and daughters – my mom is sitting to her right.

Here are most of the grandkids (and great grandkids). We were missing my cousins Josh & Sarah and their families.

The family just keeps growing and growing! My grandma is so blessed!

Tuesday

Yesterday I finally got around to weeding the flower bed. Can I call it a flower bed if it doesn’t have any flowers yet? Well there are no veggies so I have a hard time calling it a garden, but I suppose that’s what it is. We have a couple different lilies, hardy mums, some little “tree” I forget the name of, a fern, and a few hastas thanks to my friend Katy! We built it last summer, pulling rocks from the empty lots nearby. Our neighborhood is built by an old quarry, so rocks are everywhere, lucky for us!

A bunch of grass had decided to grow in the garden. I was about 3/4 of the way pulling it out when I took this picture – it really shows how bad it was!!

Micah’s hair is getting so much longer – I don’t have a little baldie anymore! And when it gets humid, which it has a lot lately with this heat wave, it gets curly. I love when it curls up! Micah played in the kiddie pool while I weeded, and he got pretty muddy, so a bath was in order when we came back inside. As his hair dried, it curled up again and I had to take a picture!

Last night I drove out to Freeport for a MOPS get-together – it was 80s night. Sorry, no picture for that – I looked ridiculous!! (Though, if you are my friend on Facebook, you’ll see a picture one of the other gals posted.) The whole way there I was really watching my speed to make sure I didn’t get pulled over. Can you imagine how embarrassing that would be to get pulled over while dressed up in a n 80s get up? Then I remembered the site “Stuff White People Like” and how 80s parties was on the list, and I just started laughing. What were people thinking in the 80s? The fashion was terrible!

On the way home, I turned around a bend and suddenly the moon appeared over the horizon. It was stunning! A full moon, and absolutely huge! I tried to take a picture of it when I got home, but I just don’t have the right lens for it. I’m a sucker for stuff like harvest moons, rainbows, lightening… anything that displays God’s majesty. To think creation is only a tiny glimpse, even in its most beautiful form, of God’s glory!

 

Exciting Stuff

There was a lot partying going on this past weekend!! My Grandma turned 90 years old on Sunday. You should have seen how many people came to celebrate with her!

I haven’t had the chance to go through all the photos from the party, but I am looking forward to it! I am excited to share them with my Grandma and the rest of the family.

I never expected May to be this busy for photography, but I always underestimate the number of people that will call me for stuff either that week or the next. I have had at least one session per week, and although that is not considered “busy” for some, it is for me! This is a “part time” business and I’m limiting myself to a max (in a pinch) of 3 shoots per week, 2 is ideal. That ensures I have enough time to edit photos in a timely manner in the time I have when Micah’s sleeping. I don’t want to work all day when he is awake – I want to play with my son! I have a chunk of debt from startup costs that I am really looking forward to paying off – and I think it will happen a lot sooner than I expected!

This weekend I am going to be at two different weddings! Holy macro – one very early in the morning I am second-shooting, and then I am running a “photo booth” for another wedding in the afternoon/evening. How exciting is that!

I just ordered new business cards – and they are not teenie tiny like my other ones (bomb!). They also feature my new branding and logo, thank goodness! I cannot wait to get them and start passing them out!

Here is a preview of the front and back:

You know what is not exciting though? I’m experiencing one major side effect from the progesterone I’m taking…. NIGHTMARES!! Seriously, every time I close my eyes, even for a nap, I have these terrible nightmares. And I wake up not feeling super rested – tense even. I don’t like this! I can’t wait for my body to adjust and not have these nightmares anymore!

How Did You Find Me?

I need to address something. You see, WordPress stats shows me what phrases people searched for to find my blog, and some of the same phrases keep popping up. One of them is particularly embarrassing, can you tell me which one it is?

34 weeks pregnant 5
30 weeks pregnant 3
39 weeks pregnant 3
croissant pizza 2
pregnant belly pictures 2
17 weeks pregnant 2
9 weeks pregnant belly 1
pregnant big butt 1
16 weeks pregnant belly pictures 1

I’ll give you a hint… it’s “pregnant big butt.” Now really, when I was pregnant, I did not have a big butt, so why is this coming up so often? I need to google this phrase myself and see…

And here it is:

9 Months + 9 Months | Kimmama

Jan 4, 2010  We were definitely trying to get pregnant, but that month I was sure it didn’t happen.  On a Monday night, Micah made his big debut: Just born!  and just today he learned how to plop down on his butt from standing. 

kimmama.com/2010/01/04/9-months-9-months/Cached

 

 

That explains it.

No Good Awful Doggoned Day, Ugh!

Last Friday was one of the most stressful days I have had as of late. And I guess it was the whole month prior building up to that day… when we got Chloe she had a healing case of demodex mange, something that is not supposed to be a huge deal. We were supposed to follow up with the vet the following week when we took her to get spayed and microchipped. The woman (let’s call her “Mindy”) we got Chloe from was going to schedule Chloe’s appointment through the Rescue for insurance purposes. We told her when we were free and then waited for her to contact us with the appointment information.

I didn’t hear from from Mindy that next week, so I emailed her and asked her when the appointment was, saying that Chloe’s skin was really flaring up. By this point, Chloe’s underside was very bumpy and very red. Clearly, her infection had not been taken care of by the antibiotics or there was something else wrong with her. She emailed me back and asked if I wanted to go to a different vet in Crystal Lake. No… I wanted to go to the one here in Rockford that we already agreed on. Then she asked what my schedule was like. I gave her my schedule. She responded the same day that she would call the vet.

Two days later, she emailed me and asked me to take Chloe in for her skin right away, and that her spay appointment would be the following week. I emailed her back and said I wanted to take care of both issues at the same appointment. It was already a Friday, waiting until the next week seemed manageable. I was spraying down Chloe’s belly with a calming spray and it seemed to help a little.

A whole week later, she emailed me again and said she had an appointment for Chloe for the following Tuesday, but she didn’t give me a time. I emailed her back and asked what time the appointment was supposed to be. No response.

The following Monday I emailed her and asked what time the appointment was the next day. She emailed me back right away and said the Vet had called her to reschedule because they were overbooked, could I go on Thursday. I repeated that Thursday was the only day I could not go. She responded, “Ok let me call and see if they can do Wednesday or Friday.”

Three days later I emailed her again, “Were you able to get the appointment for tomorrow?”  She responded, “They could not get her in so I made it for next week so u just need to drop her in the morning and she should be able to be picked up by 4.” I asked, “Ok, what day next week and what time should I drop her off?” She never responded.

The next morning, which was this past Friday, Chloe’s skin was worse than ever! By this point we had tried a few different shampoos and a special cream, but nothing was working. She had horrible, bumpy red skin and she was clearly distressed. It was beginning to affect her temperament.  She could not stop itching and biting herself, she had open sores in some areas. In tears, I called the vet to see if they had gotten a call from “Mindy.”

What they told me angered me… they are a walk-in clinic. They do not make appointments. The only time they make appointments is for major surgeries and that does not include spaying or implanting the microchip. They had not heard from or made an appointment with Mindy. My poor puppy had been suffering that whole time needlessly while Mindy continued to lie to me! She never called the vet, or she would have known and told me to go in whenever it was convenient for me. I would have been at the Vet’s office that first week we had her and she would never have gotten so bad. It was a whole month from the time that we got her to the time that I finally got Chloe into the Vet. I feel so dumb for having believed this woman when she told me she had to make the appointment and that they were always “overbooked.”

As soon as I got off the phone with the Vet’s office, I packed up Chloe, all of her stuff, and Micah, and we drove straight there. The visit itself was extremely stressful for me. Trying to keep a toddler occupied and a puppy from mowing down the whole place was difficult to say the least. Micah dumped his snacks all over the waiting room, threw a tantrum in the exam room, and Chloe would not sit still for the world. Then “Mindy” was trying to make excuses on the phone when the receptionist called her about payment. I was so over it! She wanted to talk to me, and I obliged for a minute, but then I cut it off. She was still trying to tell me that Chloe needed an appointment because she was a rescue, when I had already been told otherwise. She emailed me later that day and asked me to call her but I have not. I am too upset with her. I will deal with the Vet’s office and they can deal with her. I do not trust anything she says.

When I finally left the Vet’s office, Micah was starving and tired, and I was sobbing on the phone to Eric. I had a bunch of medications and supplements to give Chloe. I had instructions to call an in-home trainer for Chloe. I was so overwhelmed and still angry about getting the run-around from Mindy. To make things worse, I had just started my estrogen therapy and it was making me extra emotional. I cried, “I just need a hug,” and yet I knew it was going to be another 5 hours before Eric got home.

After several days on antibiotics and supplements, along with one round of Promeris, Chloe is already showing dramatic improvement. I still feel guilty that I did not get suspicious earlier and take things into my own hands weeks ago, but there is nothing I can do to change that now. I cannot wait for Chloe to be completely healed so I can forget about this whole ordeal!!

Conutnut

“Micah would you like some coconut milk?”

“Milk”

“It’s coconut milk. Say coconut.”

“Conut.”

“Say coconut.”

“Conut.”

“Say coco.”

“Coco.”

“Say coco… nut.”

“Co… nut.”

“Coconut.”

“Conut.”

“Coconut.”

“Conutnut.”

*sigh*