The End of the World Is Not Going to Happen On May 21st

I have been hearing all these references to the end of the world happening on May 21st, so I googled it and found TONS of people citing some 89-year-old guy who says the rapture is going to happen that day.

He is wrong. Why? Because Jesus told us no one would know when that day was, not even himself! Only God the Father knows, and He certainly hasn’t not put a secret code in scripture to tell us when it is – that would contradict Himself.

Jesus is coming back, but I highly doubt it’s in a couple of days. Even so, we should all be living as though it could happen in any moment! :)

Read Matthew 24:3-44:

3 As Jesus was sitting on the Mount of Olives, the disciples came to him privately. “Tell us,” they said, “when will this happen, and what will be the sign of your coming and of the end of the age?”

4 Jesus answered: “Watch out that no one deceives you. 5 For many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Messiah,’ and will deceive many. 6 You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. 7Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. 8 All these are the beginning of birth pains.

9 “Then you will be handed over to be persecuted and put to death, and you will be hated by all nations because of me. 10 At that time many will turn away from the faith and will betray and hate each other, 11 and many false prophets will appear and deceive many people. 12 Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, 13 but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved. 14 And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come.

15 “So when you see standing in the holy place ‘the abomination that causes desolation,’[a]spoken of through the prophet Daniel—let the reader understand— 16 then let those who are in Judea flee to the mountains. 17 Let no one on the housetop go down to take anything out of the house. 18 Let no one in the field go back to get their cloak. 19 How dreadful it will be in those days for pregnant women and nursing mothers! 20 Pray that your flight will not take place in winter or on the Sabbath. 21 For then there will be great distress, unequaled from the beginning of the world until now—and never to be equaled again.

22 “If those days had not been cut short, no one would survive, but for the sake of the elect those days will be shortened. 23 At that time if anyone says to you, ‘Look, here is the Messiah!’ or, ‘There he is!’ do not believe it. 24 For false messiahs and false prophets will appear and perform great signs and wonders to deceive, if possible, even the elect. 25 See, I have told you ahead of time.

26 “So if anyone tells you, ‘There he is, out in the wilderness,’ do not go out; or, ‘Here he is, in the inner rooms,’ do not believe it. 27 For as lightning that comes from the east is visible even in the west, so will be the coming of the Son of Man. 28 Wherever there is a carcass, there the vultures will gather.

29 “Immediately after the distress of those days

“‘the sun will be darkened,
and the moon will not give its light;
the stars will fall from the sky,
and the heavenly bodies will be shaken.’[b]

30 “Then will appear the sign of the Son of Man in heaven. And then all the peoples of the earth[c] will mourn when they see the Son of Man coming on the clouds of heaven, with power and great glory.[d] 31 And he will send his angels with a loud trumpet call, and they will gather his elect from the four winds, from one end of the heavens to the other.

32 “Now learn this lesson from the fig tree: As soon as its twigs get tender and its leaves come out, you know that summer is near. 33 Even so, when you see all these things, you know that it[e]is near, right at the door. 34 Truly I tell you, this generation will certainly not pass away until all these things have happened. 35 Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away.

The Day and Hour Unknown

36 “But about that day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son,[f] but only the Father. 37 As it was in the days of Noah, so it will be at the coming of the Son of Man. 38For in the days before the flood, people were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, up to the day Noah entered the ark; 39 and they knew nothing about what would happen until the flood came and took them all away. That is how it will be at the coming of the Son of Man. 40 Two men will be in the field; one will be taken and the other left. 41 Two women will be grinding with a hand mill; one will be taken and the other left.

42 “Therefore keep watch, because you do not know on what day your Lord will come. 43 But understand this: If the owner of the house had known at what time of night the thief was coming, he would have kept watch and would not have let his house be broken into. 44 So you also must be ready, because the Son of Man will come at an hour when you do not expect him.

Tuesday

Yesterday I finally got around to weeding the flower bed. Can I call it a flower bed if it doesn’t have any flowers yet? Well there are no veggies so I have a hard time calling it a garden, but I suppose that’s what it is. We have a couple different lilies, hardy mums, some little “tree” I forget the name of, a fern, and a few hastas thanks to my friend Katy! We built it last summer, pulling rocks from the empty lots nearby. Our neighborhood is built by an old quarry, so rocks are everywhere, lucky for us!

A bunch of grass had decided to grow in the garden. I was about 3/4 of the way pulling it out when I took this picture – it really shows how bad it was!!

Micah’s hair is getting so much longer – I don’t have a little baldie anymore! And when it gets humid, which it has a lot lately with this heat wave, it gets curly. I love when it curls up! Micah played in the kiddie pool while I weeded, and he got pretty muddy, so a bath was in order when we came back inside. As his hair dried, it curled up again and I had to take a picture!

Last night I drove out to Freeport for a MOPS get-together – it was 80s night. Sorry, no picture for that – I looked ridiculous!! (Though, if you are my friend on Facebook, you’ll see a picture one of the other gals posted.) The whole way there I was really watching my speed to make sure I didn’t get pulled over. Can you imagine how embarrassing that would be to get pulled over while dressed up in a n 80s get up? Then I remembered the site “Stuff White People Like” and how 80s parties was on the list, and I just started laughing. What were people thinking in the 80s? The fashion was terrible!

On the way home, I turned around a bend and suddenly the moon appeared over the horizon. It was stunning! A full moon, and absolutely huge! I tried to take a picture of it when I got home, but I just don’t have the right lens for it. I’m a sucker for stuff like harvest moons, rainbows, lightening… anything that displays God’s majesty. To think creation is only a tiny glimpse, even in its most beautiful form, of God’s glory!

 

Exciting Stuff

There was a lot partying going on this past weekend!! My Grandma turned 90 years old on Sunday. You should have seen how many people came to celebrate with her!

I haven’t had the chance to go through all the photos from the party, but I am looking forward to it! I am excited to share them with my Grandma and the rest of the family.

I never expected May to be this busy for photography, but I always underestimate the number of people that will call me for stuff either that week or the next. I have had at least one session per week, and although that is not considered “busy” for some, it is for me! This is a “part time” business and I’m limiting myself to a max (in a pinch) of 3 shoots per week, 2 is ideal. That ensures I have enough time to edit photos in a timely manner in the time I have when Micah’s sleeping. I don’t want to work all day when he is awake – I want to play with my son! I have a chunk of debt from startup costs that I am really looking forward to paying off – and I think it will happen a lot sooner than I expected!

This weekend I am going to be at two different weddings! Holy macro – one very early in the morning I am second-shooting, and then I am running a “photo booth” for another wedding in the afternoon/evening. How exciting is that!

I just ordered new business cards – and they are not teenie tiny like my other ones (bomb!). They also feature my new branding and logo, thank goodness! I cannot wait to get them and start passing them out!

Here is a preview of the front and back:

You know what is not exciting though? I’m experiencing one major side effect from the progesterone I’m taking…. NIGHTMARES!! Seriously, every time I close my eyes, even for a nap, I have these terrible nightmares. And I wake up not feeling super rested – tense even. I don’t like this! I can’t wait for my body to adjust and not have these nightmares anymore!

How to Create a Dreamlike Scene

I’ve been working on a new photography technique and I am just enamored with the results. What I do is shoot at sunset and twilight, underexpose the scene by 2/3 stop, and use my strobe in a softbox to throw soft directional light onto the subjects. It’s so pretty!

The effect it creates is a deep, rich background and very nicely lit subjects. The orange sky behind them acts as a hair light, separating them from the dark background. The processing is minimal on these.

Aren’t they cute? If you’d like to see more, visit my photography blog here.

How Did You Find Me?

I need to address something. You see, WordPress stats shows me what phrases people searched for to find my blog, and some of the same phrases keep popping up. One of them is particularly embarrassing, can you tell me which one it is?

34 weeks pregnant 5
30 weeks pregnant 3
39 weeks pregnant 3
croissant pizza 2
pregnant belly pictures 2
17 weeks pregnant 2
9 weeks pregnant belly 1
pregnant big butt 1
16 weeks pregnant belly pictures 1

I’ll give you a hint… it’s “pregnant big butt.” Now really, when I was pregnant, I did not have a big butt, so why is this coming up so often? I need to google this phrase myself and see…

And here it is:

9 Months + 9 Months | Kimmama

Jan 4, 2010  We were definitely trying to get pregnant, but that month I was sure it didn’t happen.  On a Monday night, Micah made his big debut: Just born!  and just today he learned how to plop down on his butt from standing. 

kimmama.com/2010/01/04/9-months-9-months/Cached

 

 

That explains it.

No Good Awful Doggoned Day, Ugh!

Last Friday was one of the most stressful days I have had as of late. And I guess it was the whole month prior building up to that day… when we got Chloe she had a healing case of demodex mange, something that is not supposed to be a huge deal. We were supposed to follow up with the vet the following week when we took her to get spayed and microchipped. The woman (let’s call her “Mindy”) we got Chloe from was going to schedule Chloe’s appointment through the Rescue for insurance purposes. We told her when we were free and then waited for her to contact us with the appointment information.

I didn’t hear from from Mindy that next week, so I emailed her and asked her when the appointment was, saying that Chloe’s skin was really flaring up. By this point, Chloe’s underside was very bumpy and very red. Clearly, her infection had not been taken care of by the antibiotics or there was something else wrong with her. She emailed me back and asked if I wanted to go to a different vet in Crystal Lake. No… I wanted to go to the one here in Rockford that we already agreed on. Then she asked what my schedule was like. I gave her my schedule. She responded the same day that she would call the vet.

Two days later, she emailed me and asked me to take Chloe in for her skin right away, and that her spay appointment would be the following week. I emailed her back and said I wanted to take care of both issues at the same appointment. It was already a Friday, waiting until the next week seemed manageable. I was spraying down Chloe’s belly with a calming spray and it seemed to help a little.

A whole week later, she emailed me again and said she had an appointment for Chloe for the following Tuesday, but she didn’t give me a time. I emailed her back and asked what time the appointment was supposed to be. No response.

The following Monday I emailed her and asked what time the appointment was the next day. She emailed me back right away and said the Vet had called her to reschedule because they were overbooked, could I go on Thursday. I repeated that Thursday was the only day I could not go. She responded, “Ok let me call and see if they can do Wednesday or Friday.”

Three days later I emailed her again, “Were you able to get the appointment for tomorrow?”  She responded, “They could not get her in so I made it for next week so u just need to drop her in the morning and she should be able to be picked up by 4.” I asked, “Ok, what day next week and what time should I drop her off?” She never responded.

The next morning, which was this past Friday, Chloe’s skin was worse than ever! By this point we had tried a few different shampoos and a special cream, but nothing was working. She had horrible, bumpy red skin and she was clearly distressed. It was beginning to affect her temperament.  She could not stop itching and biting herself, she had open sores in some areas. In tears, I called the vet to see if they had gotten a call from “Mindy.”

What they told me angered me… they are a walk-in clinic. They do not make appointments. The only time they make appointments is for major surgeries and that does not include spaying or implanting the microchip. They had not heard from or made an appointment with Mindy. My poor puppy had been suffering that whole time needlessly while Mindy continued to lie to me! She never called the vet, or she would have known and told me to go in whenever it was convenient for me. I would have been at the Vet’s office that first week we had her and she would never have gotten so bad. It was a whole month from the time that we got her to the time that I finally got Chloe into the Vet. I feel so dumb for having believed this woman when she told me she had to make the appointment and that they were always “overbooked.”

As soon as I got off the phone with the Vet’s office, I packed up Chloe, all of her stuff, and Micah, and we drove straight there. The visit itself was extremely stressful for me. Trying to keep a toddler occupied and a puppy from mowing down the whole place was difficult to say the least. Micah dumped his snacks all over the waiting room, threw a tantrum in the exam room, and Chloe would not sit still for the world. Then “Mindy” was trying to make excuses on the phone when the receptionist called her about payment. I was so over it! She wanted to talk to me, and I obliged for a minute, but then I cut it off. She was still trying to tell me that Chloe needed an appointment because she was a rescue, when I had already been told otherwise. She emailed me later that day and asked me to call her but I have not. I am too upset with her. I will deal with the Vet’s office and they can deal with her. I do not trust anything she says.

When I finally left the Vet’s office, Micah was starving and tired, and I was sobbing on the phone to Eric. I had a bunch of medications and supplements to give Chloe. I had instructions to call an in-home trainer for Chloe. I was so overwhelmed and still angry about getting the run-around from Mindy. To make things worse, I had just started my estrogen therapy and it was making me extra emotional. I cried, “I just need a hug,” and yet I knew it was going to be another 5 hours before Eric got home.

After several days on antibiotics and supplements, along with one round of Promeris, Chloe is already showing dramatic improvement. I still feel guilty that I did not get suspicious earlier and take things into my own hands weeks ago, but there is nothing I can do to change that now. I cannot wait for Chloe to be completely healed so I can forget about this whole ordeal!!

I Lack Nothing

I’m editing a session that I shot yesterday – currently I’m knee deep in the trenches of…. beautiful sun flare!! Well, I thought I’d take a short break and update my blog. I have to admit, lately I have felt like maybe I should just delete it. I mean, I hardly ever get comments and sometimes I wonder if I’m just writing to outerspace. Aren’t most people on Twitter and Facebook? But then I remember the real reason I blog: the hope that one person will learn from my “insight” (aka “screw ups”). Ha! Also, it gives me something to decorate. You have to be proud of me for leaving this theme up for so long – that’s a big accomplishment for me! And that is the reason I’ll never get a tattoo…

Anyway, today I was thinking about babies. More specifically, the lack of babies. It occurred to me that I have not mentally classified myself as infertile, despite the fact that I fit the text book definition of a woman “suffering” from secondary infertility. I just don’t think of myself that way – it’s not a permanent problem in my mind, and even if it were, I supposed I still don’t want to hang that sign on my door, know what I mean? It’s not that it’s a stigma that I want to avoid, it’s more like a mindset I want to avoid. I don’t want to focus on “lack” – I want to focus on “have.” Yes I currently have secondary infertility, but I also have Micah. I have my health. I have Jesus (that’s a BIG one). I have a rockin’ sexy husband who loves me very much. I have a lot to be thankful for and when I really think about it, I lack nothing.

Even if Micah is the only child I’ll ever call my own, I am content with this. That’s not to say I’m not going to try (really hard) to get pregnant for now. But if 6 months pass and it still doesn’t happen, this girl is moving on! I already told Eric 6 months is my personal limit for all these hormones. I consider that a really long time to be spending money on fertility drugs, at least for our budget… and that is the maximum continuous length of time you should take Clomid. So I think that will be a good place to stop and say, “you know what? Maybe this is not God’s plan after all.”

A lot of people have said, “if you just relax and don’t worry about it, you will get pregnant.” Please understand it’s not stress that is keeping me from conceiving. When I do ovulate, my progesterone levels are too low to sustain a pregnancy. I didn’t have this problem before Micah, so yes, it’s something new, and I don’t know what caused it to happen. I’m just going to deal with it the best I can and continue to pray for God’s provision.

Finally, do not feel one tiny ounce of guilt over announcing a pregnancy or gushing over your babies. It does not bother me like it does bother many women who can’t get pregnant. I actually enjoy getting excited with my pregnant friends and I feel sad when I learn they felt they had to hide their good news.

I am optimistic. May is a new month – and you never know – this might be the one!

Conutnut

“Micah would you like some coconut milk?”

“Milk”

“It’s coconut milk. Say coconut.”

“Conut.”

“Say coconut.”

“Conut.”

“Say coco.”

“Coco.”

“Say coco… nut.”

“Co… nut.”

“Coconut.”

“Conut.”

“Coconut.”

“Conutnut.”

*sigh*

Sweetest

I love this season of Micah’s life – this age and all the little things he does. He can be very stubborn and very mischievous, but most of the time, he is very, very sweet.  I love the sound of his tiny voice. I love the way he says “I love you” – it takes a trained mama’s ear to pick it out – sounds like I yah voo. I really love the way he hugs and kisses. Bear hugs. He won’t accept a cheek, he’ll grab your whole head and turn it so he can plant one on your lips. He doesn’t hold anything back. He’s not embarrassed of me. He gets really excited when he sees me in the morning, after a nap, or when I pick him up from the nursery at church. “Mama! Mama!” he cheers as he does a little joyful dance. He gets so much joy out of everything: his favorite foods, his favorite toys, a visit from a family member, or a trip to the park. He is still so much a baby…. and yet so much a boy.  This could last a little longer… I wouldn’t mind. He can stay 2 as far as I’m concerned.